nursing school: part II

Remember that post down there that said i was going to study for THREE TESTS IN ONE WEEK. well, that week is over. I had never been so happy to see a Wednesday at noon so much in my entire life. 


The week started off with my psych test on Monday. oh, poor, neglected psych class. I really could be making A's in this class if I just studied it a little more...or was a better guesser. But really, it's the class that i cram for...a good ole' 85 was delivered to me for this test grade. I've come to the conclusion that psych nursing is absolutely not for me. I'm not very therapeutic, and i really want to share Jesus with them up front and open. I don't like feeling held back. I bet Paul would have shared the gospel with his psych clients....and the instructors. I wanna be like Paul. But anyways, I've had two tests for this class. My average is around an 83 or 84 i think. I've had two clinicals as well. They've been okay. I really have had good clients. The one today gave me a pretty good story about why he was there. We will soon start discussing schizophrenia, and i'm pretty excited. 


Wednesday brought about pharmacology test 2 and OB test 2. I needed to make an 82 on my OB test, and pharm is just a really hard class in general. I studied for days for both of them. God really has had to talk to me about school this semester. Not sure if i ever said it here, but i wanted to quit. for real, wanted.to.quit. then i went off and saught Godly counsel and was told no. psh. So, I studied a whole lot for OB and a lot for pharm. The Lord gave me an 83 for pharm and an 84 for OB. I could try to tell you every single answer and that I left the tests feeling like a million bucks, but that would be a big fat lie. So, I'll just tell you that I prayed about every 3rd question that God would guide my pencil to the right bubble. He's really smart :) I've only had one OB clinical because there was a schedule mix up. So, I still have two more (L&D and NICU). woohoo!! 


So, THREE B's!! Praise the LORD! 


School has been hard. Well, it was really hard in the beginning. We have three classes instead of two this semester, and I got super overwhelmed...and you could tell it, all over my face! acne is real cute. So I decided to glorify God through my school work...who would have ever thought to do that. I had to change my priorities and know that this is where he has me..because it is. I got in the nursing program on the first try. I made it through first semester. I enjoy taking care of people. It's all because God put me where I am...I just didn't want to believe it. Could I have quit nursing school, chose another major, not chose another major and still glorify God? yes. But would that be perseverance and satisfaction? no. 
dummbbbbb jessica. dumb dumb. Praise the Lord of direction and the Vinson's!


There is a baby in Melinda, Sarah, and Lauren's tummy!! That's exciting news that I haven't shared yet. I'll read this post again in three years and the babies will be toddlers, and then i'll feel really old. 


You know what? I wish i posted pictures on here. poo. 


I'm going to Snowbird this weekend to help with the marriage retreat there! I'm really excited. I'm pretty sad that I'm missing the Fox Fever Run here, and I kinda wish i was going to be here for that instead. But, when I think about all of the marriages that i will get to see and pray over makes me a little giddy inside. I love the marriages modeled at swo, so i'm really excited for a bunch of married people to see those marriages too. 

I'm really excited for december. if anyone ever asks me to do anything, i tell them i will in december. it's going to be a busy month. man. (I LOVE CHRISTMAS!! it just makes me giddy inside to think about it.) yay for a friendship with jordan gray!! i've missed the girl for real. i love that she is in newnan and i'm a little jealous that she is. ok ok. maybe a lot jealous. but i'm sad that i haven't been able to see her as much. DECEMBER, jojo!!

alright, i gotta stop. this is my second blog post in one day. just call me michele hendrix. 

discipline.

Discipline from the Lord is never something that I dream about. Disappointing the One that created me doesn't bring me much happiness, and in all honesty, I do it quite often, you know, everyday. One thing that discipleship with Trish taught me was to be real. I hide my sin from others a lot less, because I've learned that pretending I don't struggle with sin is just ignorant. When I read in Romans, "For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out," I cringe. How stinking frustrating to live in this world...to live in a world that is wretched...to live in a world that was created perfectly..and be in a constant war. Sometimes, it gets weary and the word hopeless comes to mind for a moment. But then we get to chapter eight of romans and the Word says, "There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." WOAH! I don't deserve it. I didn't deserve the most perfect and precious only son of God to come to this world and take away my ugly. I don't deserve to have my rebellion, disobedience, and all of my sin to be completely covered and given the name HOLY! This restored relationship is everything. The God of the universe made a way for me to be His daughter. He thought I was worth it. He loves me unconditionally. He loves me when I hit the snooze button in the morning instead of popping out of bed, bright-eyed and bushy tailed to study His word. He loves me when I am selfish. He loves me when I think more about my future than the work that He has given me now. He loves me, and I appreciate the discipline. Because He loves me, I'll appreciate that small voice in the quiet morning telling me to get over it and get up. I'll be responsible and study one of the best gifts He ever gave us. I'll stop thinking of myself, and sacrifice my wants. I'll do my best to follow His will, even if He has to kick me the whole way down this path. I'll forget my future because I'm responsible for today. I'm thankful for the Spirit...that lives inside of me (the same one that raised Jesus from the dead). I'm thankful for the discipline. I'll be responsible and live my life completely enslaved to Christ....because he has put his spirit in me, and named me daughter, an heir.(Rom8:12). His GLORY is worth it all. I will never suffer here as much Christ suffered for me there on that cross. So, though I may not understand my actions when the flesh appears, I will strive hard to glorify my Father...and I will gladly pray for discipline, that I may be more like my Jesus. 


I pray that I may have the wisdom of Mary when the Lord chooses to use me. "Behold, I am a servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word." Such submission is what I strive for.